It’s hard to have fans
because what they want is so selfish
you won’t get any time to desire anything
you are there as a servant of wills
if I am a public image I will not desire
if I am a public image I will not move
if I am a public image I will not ask
if I am a public image I will not shit
I will pay for my hotel room
I will go to be exhibitioned
I sit on a podium
I make podiums all the time
I call them my bar stools and we sit on them and laugh like paintings.
as if we should be sat right back in our chairs and paintings should be on the wall
Some would be better gone but they accumulate in a warehouse, I haven’t got the keys
there are a few i’d burn, inside there
can somebody give me the key, if anybody has one?
thats what they call a skeleton in the closet
I call it liability
a thursday night liability
a friday night liability
a saturday night liability
painting off the wall and burning barstools
who doesn’t remember a thing?
you’re a star when you remember things others can’t
if this happens you can bury all the night’s liabilities
they might disappear
or they might be retold by a previously unknown star
I like this
why?
because it’s normal
why?
because I’ve got eyes in the front of my head.
they can see what your eyes tell
and I can hear you.
Whispering
Whispering
Behind my back
I can hear you
What are you saying?
Who is that there?
What are you doing?
oh, I forgot. I am a star. I’m so far I shouldn’t hear.
I don’t care what you think about me
because I never think of you.
had had no effect
had had no influence
had had little time
had
A Star can never ask for anything,
A Star has to be offered everything,
My First lucky break
My Second lucky break
and now you need a lucky break to see me.
hear me, i hear nothing but love, like, reactions.
sometimes they say, wow it’s so good to have you back
sometimes they say, wow you look great
sometimes they say, wow your new work is so touching
sometimes they say, wow aren’t you striking
sometimes they say, wow I need a break can you find somewhere else to sleep?
is it all falling down or are the same mechanisms in motion.
I like this because it’s normal.
I want to be sterilized clean
then tone it all down to a incognito yes or no
and upon me they will project
I want to be sleek and everyday
I want to be an electric car, silent, mundane
how about if we made a vacuum pack for my feelings
I hear the foot steps but can’t see you.
I would make big useless gestures with my arms
but stars don’t startle
all gifts, work and lucky breaks
because when everyone admires you you feel free and loved all the time.
no matter how loved and admired you are, you need likes on insta.
Not even made a mill, but i’m on my way to the top
i’m going straight there, you want to know why?
why?
have you heard my voice, impeccable gramamar.
why?
have you seen my look, you couldn’t buy this ass.
why?
actually you can, that will be one diamond
why?
but don’t you even try to lower my price, i am priceless
why?
because I am nowhere and everywhere at the same time like a god, like LTE connection